I knew i shouldnt have got out of bed today !
This morning i heard the news that my cousin Ashley passed away..and all i can think of is that my familys life is on a downward spiral lately (with the exception of my beautiful wedding) i feel as if every time my phone rings it is something new and (dumb). what with the fire, and my parents bikes getting stolen...But this is the time to be grateful for what i DO have.
-a (handsome) wonderful husband
- 2 jobs
-a roof over my head
-the gospel
- food to eat
-amazing friends
- a heart that beats
..etc. :)
I havent been very close to Ashley in the last ten years or so since we have lived on opposite sides of the country, but she pretty much raised me when i was little and she was living in my house. She taught me how to swim ! I will always love her as my Abby. This one hit home even though I am trying to be strong. I am grateful that i was able to see her at the wedding and her beautiful 3-year old daughter, Genevieve. She likes to say "awkwarddddddd!" just like me :).
Anyway. Im trying to figure out if it would be best for me to go to the funeral in North Carolina (and spend 6 days without my new hubby/working/school) or if it would be best to stay here..blah. idk.
Im grateful for the gospel, and the knowledge that i have of the hereafter, and the atonement, and all the work that we get to do in the temple. What a blessing it is that Ashley will have the opportunity to choose to come back to the gospel after falling into temptation on this earth. My heart goes out to her sweet husband, Brian and the rest of the family. Im grateful that i was sealed for time, plus ALL of eternity to my best friend..so even when one of us leaves this earth...theyre stuck with the other forever, no escaping :) Its the best blessing there is.
Thanks for letting me rant.
ps. yesterday, Dev and i were walking to class, and he says, "i like your ponytail, babe." What i thought was a throw your hair in a pony day, he recognized as something special.
i love him.
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